Suicide

Originally Posted by TheLuckyOne

I have seriously contemplated suicide on and off for about 2 years now, and I've come dangerously close to tasting the kicking end of a Soviet military revolver. I make sure not to carry a gun with me into the woods on bad days, though.

I own a semi-auto handgun, which I use for target shooting. It gives me a sense of peace and tranquility, since it offers me the illusion of control of my life. However, I probably wouldn't recommend this as a sporting interest to anyone who's reading this thread.

I hope this is born out of general wondering and not the desire to commit suicide. :( If it's the latter, I really hope you find someone to talk to.

I've never even considered it. I've been depressed, particularly due to my anxiety disorder, but suicide just doesn't make sense to me. Though, most of my anxiety is focused on going out of my way to avoid death, so it wouldn't make a lot of sense to start seeking it out. Plus, I'd miss people, and I'd never know if tomorrow is going to be the day that things finally get awesome.