History with my Entp guy: we met almost 2 years ago. We were both coming out of bad long term breakups with others. We met, hit it off and started to spend a lot of time together. I naturally fell into girlfriend expection phase since that is what I'm used to.. he backed off, we continued seeing other but when I found out he was seeing others I backed off and told him I just wanted to be friends. I slipped a few times and hung out with him but I always ended it b/c I couldn't reconcile anything longterm happening in my mind.
Part 2: I went overseas for 3 mos. We still emailed here and there. He came to see me for about 2 weeks. Honestly, I don't know why I agreed as I was more filled with fear than happiness, fueled by the fact he grilled me on who i'd 'been with' while I had been there and further irritated me stating he knew I and another girl were in love with him but he couldn't decide. He was in contact with this girl while visiting me, but kept it on the sly while saying she was too cling and needed to end it with her. I was pissed and it didn't go well.
Part 3: we talk here and there online. He dials me up one night to tell me about a girl he thinks he might commit to and asks my advice. I know he values my mind and my opinion, but am again putoff, b/c I still have some feelings for him. I ask him isn't there anyone else you can get advice from? We don't really talk much for a couple of months, his other relationship ends.
Part 4: I get ready to leave to go overseas again for a few months. He asks me to not go and date him. He said he never allowed himself to be vulnerable with me and wanted to try. I said no, and leave. He emailed me the and there stating he missed me. I returned and we gave it a shot. He was very different, vulnerable and awkward even. I still wasn't sure, he has a child and I thought he might still have feelings for his ex, plus I had a hard time trusting Gm. He has been with A LOT of women. He said he wanted to live with me. I was confused and started acting weird, maybe a mixture of being clingy for reassurance and mixed signals for uncertainty. He said I was taking him for granted and got weird jealous a few times. I sensed he started seeing girls again and his good friend confirmed it.
Part 5: we were talking and I let the above slip, wa duly grilled over 2 days. I told him what I was told, and he said he was very disappointed in me, that the guy liked so his advice was biased. He said I should have asked him and now he thinks he is done.
I get it....that this would piss someone off withholding info. But I was hurt and needed time to process my feelings. Through all of this, where before I was wishy-washy, I think I have come to love him, but I don't have any idea how to mend it..
Thanks in advance for reading my diatribe and offering any advice. I'm an NF btw, if you can't tell.