[DETERMINANT]

I'm almost twenty now. I think that I'm maturing, but I'm not sure where I'm headed.

I feel as if I am finally starting to really make use of my emotions. After a period of being outgoing, I've recently entered a phase of introversion. There's been ups and downs in my introversion, and it feels like my subconscious is trying to figure out the sweet spot between 'too quiet' and 'too loud'. I've seen glimpses of this sweet spot, and oh man, those moments make me feel as if I can make the whole world fall in love- and those I've met during those moments have ended up really liking me. I'm not sure how to put it, but it feels like I'm just so happy and full of love to share with little inhibition. Unfortunately, those moments have been rare.

I've tried to put this into simpler words many times, but it's rather difficult. Some of the ENTPs here have told me that it is my Fe developing. While I agree that this is probably a part of the process of my maturation, I am worried that I will end up being reserved for good. Looking at myself recently, I am self-monitoring and not so friendly with strangers anymore, which also frustrates and worries me.

What am I meant to do? Is waiting for all this to pass (hopefully it will pass) the only option?

[Monte]

I dunno, but I just turned twenty a month ago myself and I'm going through the same.

"Your Fe is developing" is all I've really heard too, it seems like there's more to it to me...

[gingertonic]

same here. I'm definitely starting to notice a change in the dynamic for my group of friends. Fe is getting all weird, making me look like a good person.

luckily my skill with dick jokes has yet to disappear

[FuzzyLittleManPeach]

What am I meant to do? Is waiting for all this to pass (hopefully it will pass) the only option?

It'll pass as soon as you stop thinking about it

I think your exuberance is a by-product of introspection and as a result, a more balanced psyche.

[mayhamfx]

I'm 51 and I still act like a ten year old.

[MadKeltoi]

Man, you guys don't how relieved I am now. Not that I apreciate the confusion you're being through but now I see that I'm not getting crazy (or maybe we are. All ENTP together, ).

No, seriosly. I'm in the same boat and I'm getting to the conclusion that the best thing to do is not to rationalize it. I'm also using the help of my dreams to understand what is going on in my subconscious mind (lucid dreaming can be so helpful). In other words: avoid using Ti on this situation.

Another thing that I do sometimes (when I can focus enough to do it) is creating something. Than you will not thougth about anything, just your new crazy plan, may it be a drawing, learning something new, writing a new article or building up your new invention. Keep yourself busy. Your mind will work it out. Good luck guys. I'll say if those shots in the darks worked. They seem to be working.

[DETERMINANT]

It feels like it's been so long since I started this thread. Only two weeks! I was quite worried that I'd stay like that forever.
I've become very sociable now, and just going for a walk out to town yesterday meant numerous, energetic conversations with boys and girls the whole way through.
I can see that I'm still changing- at an even faster rate than before. Now I can understand what the older ENTPs here have been telling me about.

[bellisaurius]

You're right on track. You're already learning to adjust your personality volume which is the big issue for how much people will want to deal with you on a consitsent basis.


I'd experiment with a ratio to see if it helps: Say one witty pithy remark, then hold back on the next. Also, you can almost always interject questions when dealing with people. It allows them to talk about themselves more which'll give you more leeway in what you'd like to say.

[Devin87]

Today I went to work on my day off and I snuck up behind my boss in the middle of a meeting and started giving him bunny ears and moose antlers. Only to have him turn around and I immediately realized he wasn't in that kind of mood... Yeah... A little more maturity might not hurt me...

[DETERMINANT]

My life has become quite awesome. I have learned to understand myself better, and through understanding myself I can understand everything else much more clearly.
I'm trying out new things that catch my eye, meeting interesting people everywhere I go, looking forward to tomorrow- learning to 'be myself'.
Life is starting to make me feel the way it used to do when I was a child: curious, enthusiastic and brave. It's such a contrast to the difficult and off-putting task everyday life used to feel like.