I'm almost twenty now. I think that I'm maturing, but I'm not sure where I'm headed.
I feel as if I am finally starting to really make use of my emotions. After a period of being outgoing, I've recently entered a phase of introversion. There's been ups and downs in my introversion, and it feels like my subconscious is trying to figure out the sweet spot between 'too quiet' and 'too loud'. I've seen glimpses of this sweet spot, and oh man, those moments make me feel as if I can make the whole world fall in love- and those I've met during those moments have ended up really liking me. I'm not sure how to put it, but it feels like I'm just so happy and full of love to share with little inhibition. Unfortunately, those moments have been rare.
I've tried to put this into simpler words many times, but it's rather difficult. Some of the ENTPs here have told me that it is my Fe developing. While I agree that this is probably a part of the process of my maturation, I am worried that I will end up being reserved for good. Looking at myself recently, I am self-monitoring and not so friendly with strangers anymore, which also frustrates and worries me.
What am I meant to do? Is waiting for all this to pass (hopefully it will pass) the only option?