So I've been reading these forums for the last few weeks and was like why don't I post? Sooo here we go!
Hi everyone (Beware this may be a little long, I'll try and keep it short)
Probably the best place to start is at the beginning I figure right? Well as all stories start this one starts with a break-up... First love... I could probably write a movie but I wont. Any who we were together for 2 years and she ended it (I don't blame her anymore) I wasn't really myself at that point. More of a lazy, trying to just glide by because it was easy. It took a lot of healing, but eventually I got out of my shell and more then a year later everything's really good!
Around March this year I got tired of being depressed (almost a year after we broke up). As Barney Stinson would say "When you get sad, stop being sad and be Awesome instead!" So I changed my room completely around stowed away some old things I had lying around and was like lets do something! Finished my term of school and realized I had been in school for 3 years and had nothing to show for it. So for a change of pace I got a job in the field I am studying and am currently working there.
Started joining a bunch of sports this fall and hanging out with friends as much as possible! Life's been a blast... For the most part. When I'm around others its great. But when there is no one, the loneliness is kind of unbearable... Find myself looking at old photos of her and me sometimes wanting back what I'd lost (the closeness, not her). Haven't been on a date since we broke up, and I'm starting to feel pretty unattractive.
I only really talk to one of my friends about it, because I feel like a broken record when I talk to everyone else. And I just don't like pushing negative thoughts onto others. I also saw a post earlier on the forums about how people just like me "as a friend" no one really ever wants to risk dating (this happened last week).
And this is where I stop! Wow that's a wall of text! So I guess long and short of it is... Am I doing something wrong? Something to make me unappealing. I can keep filling my free time with sports/friends/general tomfoolery. But it feels like I'm just waiting. And its really starting to get to me.
Anyway Hi again, glad I found this forum :).