OK I have been noticing something in particular about myself recently.
I build up a picture of somebody I admire (whether I've met them or not) in my head. I am in love with this idealized image of them. When reality comes along and shows me that something is not right with my image of them, my brain REFUSES to accept the reality. However hard I try, I cannot think of them in terms of the real them, unless the real them is there in my face presenting themselves in real time as different to my image of them. Quite simply, f they are not present, my idealized image of them immediately comes to mind and I cannot replace it with the more realistic image.
Let me try to explain in a bullet point. I can be incredibly attracted to a person in my head, when in actual real life I find them quite repulsive.
And it's not just people I'm sexually attracted to - I'm talking attraction on the general interpersonal level as well, and this also applies to places and things as well as people.
I wonder if it has to do with incredibly inferior Si.
Does anyone else experience this? It's really annoying!
I blame Plato.