I'm not really all that sure how to begin something like this, but it's something that's been really bothering me lately. And well... Kind of more than lately.
I'm not entirely sure of myself anymore. And by that, I mean I don't know what kind of personality I really do have. So many internal feelings I have tell me that I am one thing, but then I start to question it -- more and more lately.
I've long identified as an ENFP, but lately I've become more introverted. I believe that's a combination between both the state of my mental health and also that I've placed a much stronger focus on creating things that inspire me both in music, writing and just concepts that I want to develop. Helping a friend with creating a videogame has also helped nurture my creativity. It's not finished yet, but It's something I'm very interested in, of which I have largely been responsible for the concept and story of it along with developing the music.
I've always scored incredibly highly as an Intuitive every time I've taken the MBTI. Last time, I scored a 91%. It was my highest preference of all the values. Sometimes, though I'm scared that I'm changing and becoming less of who I want to be. I guess I'm trying to say that I have very high standards for myself and I am worried about trending towards the Sensor spectrum. And while there is absolutely nothing wrong with being a Sensor, it's not the person I think will grant me the most happiness or unlock potential I know I have.
That worries me.
But what also worries me is my Extroversion verses Introversion. I feel as though I've become more introverted and I'm okay with that if that's what it takes for me to be even more creative. What bothers me is that I'm not sure I fit the kind of image of an INFP (which is what that would make me by default) that probably most people think of. I don't really think very often about librairies or books. I guess it's just because I don't have the patience to read or motivation to read along with it being very difficult to find something that I resonate incredibly strongly with. I feel as though I would enjoy reading if I found something that I felt incredibly attracted to, but I also feel I'd grow restless knowing that I could be creating something instead. I guess I just don't know if I fit the standard INFP mould in some ways and that makes me question myself as well.
The things I treasure the most are few, but those few things I love, I love very intensely. It's both a blessing and a curse.
I don't know. This may even sound incredibly dumb or silly to be thinking about all of this, but it's been bothering me how I can't really nail this down or that seemingly I feel so much less sure about it than I used to. And it's been bothering me for a long time.
I also feel really, really odd having typed out all of this information about something deeper in my personality on a forum of people I don't even really know. It's just... really odd to me. I tend to be very private with these kinds of things -- particularly not posting them on a social forum.
With all of that said, is there any advice or insight you can give to any of this with what I've explained? I don't even know if I really explained anything appropriately enough for that. This all feels kind of unusual to me. I don't think I've ever gone out on such a limb like this on a forum. But I just felt as though I needed to ask. I needed to ask someone. It'd be very appreciated.
I'm not entirely sure of myself anymore. And by that, I mean I don't know what kind of personality I really do have. So many internal feelings I have tell me that I am one thing, but then I start to question it -- more and more lately.
I've long identified as an ENFP, but lately I've become more introverted. I believe that's a combination between both the state of my mental health and also that I've placed a much stronger focus on creating things that inspire me both in music, writing and just concepts that I want to develop. Helping a friend with creating a videogame has also helped nurture my creativity. It's not finished yet, but It's something I'm very interested in, of which I have largely been responsible for the concept and story of it along with developing the music.
I've always scored incredibly highly as an Intuitive every time I've taken the MBTI. Last time, I scored a 91%. It was my highest preference of all the values. Sometimes, though I'm scared that I'm changing and becoming less of who I want to be. I guess I'm trying to say that I have very high standards for myself and I am worried about trending towards the Sensor spectrum. And while there is absolutely nothing wrong with being a Sensor, it's not the person I think will grant me the most happiness or unlock potential I know I have.
That worries me.
But what also worries me is my Extroversion verses Introversion. I feel as though I've become more introverted and I'm okay with that if that's what it takes for me to be even more creative. What bothers me is that I'm not sure I fit the kind of image of an INFP (which is what that would make me by default) that probably most people think of. I don't really think very often about librairies or books. I guess it's just because I don't have the patience to read or motivation to read along with it being very difficult to find something that I resonate incredibly strongly with. I feel as though I would enjoy reading if I found something that I felt incredibly attracted to, but I also feel I'd grow restless knowing that I could be creating something instead. I guess I just don't know if I fit the standard INFP mould in some ways and that makes me question myself as well.
The things I treasure the most are few, but those few things I love, I love very intensely. It's both a blessing and a curse.
I don't know. This may even sound incredibly dumb or silly to be thinking about all of this, but it's been bothering me how I can't really nail this down or that seemingly I feel so much less sure about it than I used to. And it's been bothering me for a long time.
I also feel really, really odd having typed out all of this information about something deeper in my personality on a forum of people I don't even really know. It's just... really odd to me. I tend to be very private with these kinds of things -- particularly not posting them on a social forum.
With all of that said, is there any advice or insight you can give to any of this with what I've explained? I don't even know if I really explained anything appropriately enough for that. This all feels kind of unusual to me. I don't think I've ever gone out on such a limb like this on a forum. But I just felt as though I needed to ask. I needed to ask someone. It'd be very appreciated.