As I stated in the intro section, I am a newly discovered introvert trying to get a full grasp on it. I have several questions about it and things that happen to me and need some perspective to sort out some chaos in my life.
My question here is about work. I am a system admin and I feel that I am very good at what I do. I think I like what I do, but I just do not particularly like doing what I do where I am. So, I struggle a lot in coping with my job.
Hopefully I can articulate this the way I need too, if not, maybe some of you fellow introverts can grasp what I am getting at.
I get accused a lot and even sometimes getting reprimanded about me being uncooperative. I do not feel that is the case at all. For instance, a coworker asks that I write them a program, or buy them a piece of technology, etc etc etc to help them do their job better. No problem, that's my job. But where the problem comes in is that I feel most of the time my coworkers are just trying to dump things on me that they don't feel like doing themselves(this brings up another point for later). I know this is not always the case and it is just that they do not understand the specifics that I must adhere to myself to do my job effectively and to get my coworker what they are wanting. Its mostly education on their part, just like I may not know all the ins and outs to do their job. BUT; other times my coworkers suggestions sounds like hairbrained knee jerk reactions to problems they are having and just spurt out the first thing that comes to mind that sounds good. So, when I sense this my first reaction is NO. I dont say no to them because I do not want to help them or I am lazy, I want them to put some more effort into researching and brainstorming ideas on possibilities to make their job easier, instead of saying they want the first thing that comes to mind and for me to actually read their mind and try to figure out what they are really wanting.
Another source of contention that is a problem for me is that I feel people just do not read and repeatedly ask me for help. For example, an error message pops up on their computer screen and they have to call me down to their office for me to see it and tell them what to do. This is fine as well, its my job. BUT; my coworkers tend to only see a box that pops up on their screen and freak out. When I get to their desk, I ask myself "why the hell did you call me down here for this?" Especially the ones that only give you the option of "OK" and nothing else to choose from. Another aspect to this is that they just do not read. A lot of times those error messages tell the user exactly what to do, but they just dont read it. They call me to walk them through deciding whether or not they want to "cancel" or "continue" what they were trying to do. Just read, people. I do tend get a little short with people at times.
These sort of things have drained me, I have been at my current employment way too long. I have to drag myself out of bed every morning to go to work, I am lucky to make it in by nine. My job is no longer a challenge for me anymore and I just despise coming into the office.
My feelings on this is that I love to help people when they need it or want it. I never impose myself upon other people, too each their own is my philosophy. But my expectations for people when they want my help is that they must help themselves first. I know this can apply to anything besides just work. I expect that if people want me to help them then they must put forth some effort to show that they really want what they are asking for and so that I dont waste my time doing something for them that ends up not being what they really wanted or needed. I just want people to care as much as I do and put the effort in it as I do when they want something.
Is this part of being introverted, or am I really just crazy?