I just started going to school for Computer Science because I've always been good with computers and did really well in some classes I took in it. Some days I love it but at times I think of just sitting in a cubicle and coding all day and it makes me want to die. Being female, I was ashamed to admit to people I was majoring in Computer Science. My dad is a computer programmer and I find absolutely nothing wrong with it, but I just don't see it fitting in with my identity, who I want to be if that makes sense. It'd make me feel manly and although I know it isn't true the stereotypes that programmers are boring social rejects gets to me. I used to be like that but I've been changing and am very feminine and am in a relationship and have been improving myself and my personality.
The environment of a job in pharmacy really appeals to me. Physical Therapy appeals to me too along with Nursing. Pharmacy and PT are at the top because you interact with people but you're still a professional and it's something I'd be proud of telling people. I'm very feminine and it'd help me feel feminine. I don't mind it being monotonous at times, and I think it sounds challenging yet fun and yet rewarding. I didn't do so well in Chemistry in HS but I'm enrolling in Chemistry and Math next semester and where I live I'd be guaranteed a spot in first year Pharmacology (but I'd get kicked out if I failed, obviously).
I love the idea of writing my own programs and making my own websites for all my ideas. I've been making websites since I was a kid. They're simple and I haven't been able to code any programs like I've wanted to do. But realistically, I'll just become a code monkey. Plus the work environment just depresses me, I used to have a computer addiction. Plus I don't know if I'd be able to look back on my life and be satisfied with what I picked. I want to contribute to the world, give back to the community. Pharmacy seems to be the perfect combination of the two. But maybe I'd get bored of Pharmacy because I'm not as interested in Chemistry and Biology as I am Programming?
Has anybody faced a similar dilemma?