My addiction is astrology. (wow. Just saying that is a load-off).
Ok, so long story short, I got really interested in astrology after my 15th birthday, after I went through an incident during which I was lead to believe I might have cancer.
So here is what my logical mind tells me..that extreme fear of death prompted me to seek answers to the meaning of life a.s.a.p, by any means, and I was also going through a lot of injustice(getting bullied and teased) etc, so I started getting into astrology. Took me about 2 years before I finally got the hang of it.
My rational mind says I was seeing things, I became obssessive-compulsive, and was looking and seeing patterns everywhere, even though they were not there.
bBut, after getting into this stuff for almost 7 years, now, I have seen too much to just dismiss it as pure jibberish. My intuition tells me there is something to it, but it is far from being a precise system, a tool, a science..I am aware of that.
BUT, at the same time, the fact that it works even partially is so intriguing to me(especially being a generally logical person).
My only fear is that this new way of seeing life does not affect my perception to the point of screwing up simply principles of every-day reality..
Just..ugh, dunno. Help. How much do you believe in free will?