VivianeScrooge

So...I've been here since October, and this place is like my personal oasis, my getaway from life's demand.

I think I should be more open to other people, I've tried and failed. I'm done trying. I just cant be on the same level with other people. No pun intended.

Its frustrating to me be surrounded with such boring people, and be guilty for mocking them inside my head.

I'm in college now, I thought everything will change. Guess again, Viviane. It sucks just as high school did.

People just have this thing to exaggerate their life, their surroundings, their experience, I'm always aggravated because of this.

Or anything, involving human interaction. Its too shaky and unreliable. I'm now living with a roommate in a dormitory, and we always have an argument. She kept asking me for things, and tell me that she deserves it.
At what point, if I might ask?
And she also said I'm very selfish and only think about my self.

I'm an INTP with a 5w4, so...is that answering your question?

I want to quit college, all of the 'girls peers' are talking about me behind my back. Is not like I care to blend in with other people, its just my roommate. She always demand me for lots of stuff, I have to decrease my analytical nature, I have to talk to her and accompany her when she needs me, we have to constantly talking. She will be agitated and felt that I'm misbehaving and mocking her when I'm in my personal space doing my thing.

Seriously, can life be more confusing!?

To take it up a notch, I'm in love with my friends boyfriend. He is...just the person I want to hang out every day, a guy that I could lean on.

I know he likes me back, but his girlfriend ugh!!!!

Anyway, that's all from me. I don't know whether people will see this, or just skim this. I just want to retold a bit from my crappy life. It soothing, give the impression I'm somewhat being heard.