How I See my Tritype Reflected in Me
by, 02-09-2012 at 01:09 PM (232 Views)
I feel strongly like a 4. It's the type I most relate to. Honestly, after 4 I can see how I could be almost any type... I have sometimes wondered if I was another type, but there was never a pattern to it. The only pattern was when I was at unhealthy levels I could look like a 2, and thought I was a 2, because I could be clingy, overly generous, and obsessed with making people need me. When I am a healthier 4 I have 1 traits, like having strong ideals, so I sometimes thought I was a 1. I also have perfectionism associated with 1, but now I think it's just the innate shame of 4 making me perfectionistic. I'm very obsessed with authenticity and try to always be as honest about myself as possible. I want to learn about myself and I need close relationships. I tend to idealize people and write lots of poems about the people who mean a lot to me (unfortunately it's often melancholy poetry, which shouldn't be surprising, given I'm a 4). I care about my appearance and accomplishments more than 4w5's usually do (I'm a 4w3). I used to dress really crazy to express myself, but though I still express myself through clothes and make up, I look more normal. Sometimes even trendy. I do mythologize my life and past, which is supposedly more 4w5, but all 4's have influence of both wings (but my 3 wing is a lot stronger than my 5 wing).
My 6w7, combined with my Fe from being an INFJ, makes me very focused on people. I can be very dutiful, I need social harmony, I try to make people happy and get everyone to get along, I enjoy having friends. I can be very expressive about myself -- not closed off at all. However, I do not have the suspicious nature associated with 6 (though I do have the anxiety). I am very loyal like 6's tend to be.
My 9w1 reflects how I hate conflict and it literally makes me ill. I can't even watch game shows because if someone gives the wrong answer or loses I feel horrible for them and panic. I want everyone to get along and be happy. I can be a little lazy at times, especially when I don't have a deadline for a project that's set by another person.
Overall, I'm a daydreamer, an artist, empathic with people yet naive, someone who easily loves, someone seeking greater enlightenment, and a person always on the search to understand myself and reflect myself accurately.