Do it. You know you want to. What is there here anyway? Why Dont you just do it. Pain is immaterial remember, its all just sensation right? Stop it all, take control, take initiative. Stop moping around. Do it.

You dont have the balls to do it...who are we kidding.

Coward.

She was right, They all were right. Jay way right, Cheryl was right...just fucking do it. You know you will eventually anyway. Whether quick and direct or slow and circuitous, the...

its sad really...avoidant personality disorder (as the psychologists,who are assholes and like labeling people who think/behave differently as "ill", like to call it) makes it very hard to get a girlfriend...

very very very hard...
and even harder to keep one...hardest of all to get one whom you can love...

im tired of this shit. is there medication i could take? i know a lot of people get drunk or high to remove inhibitions, but for me its not so much...

i have noticed a startling trend happening...the people i am trying to make friends with are getting banned...a lot.

at first i thought it mere coincidence...
then i thought the problem was with my, making friends with the wrong crowd like usual...
now i realize however...all the mods are out to get me...they want me gone but im to good at walking the grey area between distasteful and bannable....

but my day will come...i cannot last forever..
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