tattoolady

Im sick of this shit....
IM NOT GOING!! im not going to this funeral and crying my eyes out. not because im sad for the Death of my father. who BTW was NOT all that great a person. im not gonna say he was a great man cause lord and i know he wasnt.
and im not gonna say he'll be missed. cause as far as im concerned he wont be.

I guess what upsets me the most, is that. the SAME family members who are Mourning his death calling it a Tragity and saying he was a great man who will be missed, are the SAME Family members who a little over a year ago were calling the cops on him, and telling him to Go away forever!! beause oh how AWEFUL he was!

Im tired of this bull shit. i dont want to spend a week in that place, and i Dont want to spend an Arm and a Leg Driving or Flying there! so im not going... we didnt have a good relationship ANYWAYS!! i hated that man and have made my peace with the "death of my dad" YEARS ago!
I dont care if who he was when he was drinking, was Completely different from who he was when he was sober.
He was Still a God Aweful Drunk, and THAT Was who HE Truely WAS!!
i dont feel the need to "make peace" with him. thats a ritual for the living not the dead. and like i said, ive already done it.
I want to be there for my sister and the rest of my Family. but NOT ALL of my family is going... so why should i? when everyone. INCULDING HIM. knew i liked him the Least!..... Im not going.