Life

Im sick of this shit....
IM NOT GOING!! im not going to this funeral and crying my eyes out. not because im sad for the Death of my father. who BTW was NOT all that great a person. im not gonna say he was a great man cause lord and i know he wasnt.
and im not gonna say he'll be missed. cause as far as im concerned he wont be.

I guess what upsets me the most, is that. the SAME family members who are Mourning his death calling it a Tragity and saying he was a ...

the Title says it all.
Today is not a good day for me. i woke up in a good mood! but as soon as i got out of bed.. BAM! pissy and HIGHLY Irritable... i dont know whats wrong with me. nothing brought this on. but EVERYTHING just Exacerbates the feeling!!

Ive thought about drinking my sorrows away. but i honestly HATE being drunk! I HATE IT! so... thats not gonna work. i wanted to Sleep. but no... thats not gonna happen ither, i tryed thinking of the happys and goods in my life ...