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So, I figured out what quiets down my incessant mind.

Nature.

Apparently something simple as being in nature, and just listening/observing the animals/bugs/trees/everything quiets my mind as nothing else has. It's almost like a meditation in and of itself. I got around about an hour or two outside today...and first I felt rather bad about not having anything to do out there, but then I settled into watching some squirrels play ...

Not so long ago I wrote a blog post about that I'll be spending a year not even thinking about getting into a (romantical) relationship that I'll spend this time dealing with emotional issues I have (emotional suppression to be exact.) It's been going great so far and it's getting better and better. I've read some books and internet articles how to deal with this stuff and also came up with my own theories. And in this blog I'll explain the stuff I've been doing almost daily to improve the quality ...

It seems that I have made a plan... or actually a decision. I realized that my unhealthy way I handle my emotions - emotional suppression, has turned into emotional detachment sometimes. Also couple of crazy Ni-Ti loops, limerence and loneliness have made me think that I have to spend serious amount of time alone, with myself, going through memories and thoughts, and observe what kind of emotions I have attached to them and how to express and release them from suppression. I'll be spending a year ...

I came home on a warm day yesterday to find that my cactus got over showered again... Still it thrives. I was in a half right sort of mood, and something instantly attracted me to to the grass and green- flourishing weeds below. I knelt down on the sun-soaked moist greenery and dug in; became rooted. I looked at the swaying willow, it's branches whistling past my right ear's awareness. I heard everything and it was a part of me. I fit in perfectly, I was only here to be a piece of the puzzle. I ...