How does one turn their emotions off?
by, 10-24-2009 at 04:30 PM (15023 Views)
How do people keep from letting their heartache effect them? Better yet, how do people NOT have heartache?
I know alot of scientist types... and I love their logic and how organized they are compared to me, but the thing I envy the most is how they are able to just ignore their emotions. No matter how hard I try, my emotions consume me, especially when it is pain. There are many things I do to cope, but I look at people who have been hurt and they seem fine. I know that they are probably hurting on the inside, but how do they not let it effect their lives?
When I hurt, its all I can think about. I can stray from this at times when I stay busy, but there is always something that I see or hear that reminds me of the pain and it cripples me once again. I try and ignore it because people around me just can't understand why I am so emotional. I would rather deal with those feelings on my own then to put them out in the open and have someone roll their eyes at me.
I just want to not feel sometimes.There are good emotions, but even in those I feel alone. If I am overcome with how beautiful something is, other people can't understand it. I feel awkward in trying to explain why I feel the way I do, good or bad, not because I don't know HOW to say it, but because I know the other person just doesn't get it.
Right now, I'm going through a rough time and I am really devastated by the happenings in my life, and I feel like I have no one to turn to. I think about sharing, but I know it won't be received well. I wish I could just turn these emotions off.