The Mortality Problem: Self-Worth
by, 08-17-2011 at 05:25 AM (355 Views)
“Purpose” assumes a driving force within one’s mind. Though the idea (of purpose) most often is felt as a calling or luring of one to a kind of destiny. A feeling, more than anything, that grasps the individual and hooks itself around their soul, making them believe that without it they will be adrift in the abyss.
The appeal of purpose could most efficiently be described as a hallucinated sense of what one needs to be real. For people search their whole lives for things other than themselves that they use to prove their existence; in some cases, the use validates, in their mind, their existence.
With such a constant state of mind-games, one would think that people would wonder why simply being would not be proof enough, and might, then, we begin to build our awareness off of that rather than build our awareness after we have placed ourselves within a box? The statements “I am happy”/”I am sad”, for example, are merely ways for us to classify ourselves in ways that we ourselves understand by passing ourselves through the perception of others first, and then accepting the classification as ourselves. An intelligent being would simply say: “I am, and that is enough for me.” Content to be, needing no proof to hold on to.
But people constantly analyze and evaluate those around them, as if constantly questioning whether or not this life is real. Of course, reality is relative, as is our sense of ourselves - in it’s entirety.
Curiosity, of course, plays a large role as well. So what is it that drives people to analyze? Why do they need proof or classification of their existence? I believe it has to do with the abyss aforementioned. People cannot tolerate a state of uncertainty because they are not certain of themselves deep down. As though what ever bothers them threatens their survival. Thus we see the ties to the Mortality Problem. If they were certain of themselves (having security, in other words), it would not matter. Nothing would, because the being that floated within uncertainty would itself be solid and self-proclaimed. If it were certain of itself, why would it need a status or label attached to it? One that is sure to fade and die off unlike the being who searches for itself.
In essence, mortality is the problem. If one were invincible, one would not fear to thrust one’s self into the midst of a tornado. The wind would certainly be chaotic and unstable, but it would not matter, due to the nature of the being thrust into it. Chaos cannot harm certainty. Nor can instability harm that which is invincibly solid. But to rely on unstable, random, and mortal objects to build the foundation of our being, we will certainly be undermined in the end by our shortsightedness.
- Adrian Pansky.