to prove to myself that I can do it alone, be happy, and be content. And to prove everybody else right, that I am so independent and strong. They assume I'm okay. They always assume I'm okay. And I want them to be right. I want to be the high-productive, low-maintenance, no nuisance perfect ray of sunshine that is the expectation. I work on myself. I do all the things that I believe are right to do. I get up in the morning. I work. I work out. I eat decently healthy. I strive to sleep alright. I
I'm super depressed. It's the emotional state of mind and is not related to reality, but everything seems futile. Frustrating. Momentuous joy is a stray ray of sunlight in the void.
Originally Posted by Arzazar Szubrasznikarazar Bought myself a pack of 60 VitD3+K2 pills and 20 new gel pens. So, I won't get winter depression or run out of drawing supplies for about two months.
Generally, I feel pain. I found a new bible quote I like a lot:
"Now this was the sin of your sister Sodom: She and her daughters were arrogant, overfed and unconcerned; they did not help the poor and needy. They were haughty and did detestable things before me. Therefore I did away with them as you have seen."
Originally Posted by Arzazar Szubrasznikarazar Felling ill. Physically and emotionally.
I have a few months of safety. Didn't manage to study much, though. I have trouble keeping attention on stuff, remembering what I wanted to be doing.
Started a W3C course two weeks ago, but I got distracted a week ago when I encountered radical feminists on Tumblr and their anti-porn and anti-BDSM posts. Spent about a week digesting it. I tried to write a long reply to one of posts but so far haven't managed to finish it.
The greatest question mankind has ever had: What exactly happened in the beginning? Where did we come from?
Nature vs Nurture - the biggest debate among psychologists is whether phenomena is induced out of choice or out of our genetic makeup. Did a person want to kill somebody because they have a gene that makes them want to kill somebody or do they want to kill somebody because they grew up in harsh environments? Evidence does not seem to suggest either way because people want to kill