myjazz

Some time ago I set myself on a course that was...well I can really put in words...or I just don't want to.

It is time for me to regain my energy or myself in that matter. I feel like I have been on idle actually I know I have. It is time for me to reclaim my place...for those who understand the human mind, body, and soul you have a general glimpse as of what I am saying.
My work out routine before I closed off the majority of my energy. In the morning (about 4 am)I would stretch do a 100 push-ups and a 100 sit-ups. Walk about 2 miles to work carrying a back pack with 60 LBS of weights..I was pissed because I could't add more weight due to the straps couldn't take any more weight. My supplements, extra clothes, etc. and 20 lb leg weights on. While at work I utilized my work place to the fullest the best I could for martial arts training and physical training. Some example are: (at the time I was working fast food on back line, it was a cool job) whenever I had to move back and forth down the line I would side shift each time. If I had to get something out of the freezer I would punch the box open which by the way a frozen box of sausage kinda hurts. On my break I would kick the top of the cement guards around the dumpster about 2-3 inch's above my head. Numerous more things while I was at work.
After work I would suit up by bag and walk to the free gym at a church..which was usually just a few people if any there at all. I would work out for a hour or two, run a mile or 2 around the track. Use the sauna for about 30 to an hour stretching most of the time.
Drink some water and walk back home. I would rest for a minute before I continued. Then I would train until I felt I trained enough. Relax again for a moment and start working out again with ending the day like I started it 100 of three different kinds of push up and 100 of front and oblique sit ups. This is just a brief description of my routine but my dilemma was that I was trying to push my self . The problem was that I was so use to pushing myself through out my life as hard as I could I couldn't really get the full push that I was seeking. So one day I decided no matter what it took I was going to push my boundaries as far as I could. After my usual daily routine which ended about 7 or 9 at night starting about 4 in the morning. After getting something to eat across the street I figured since today was chest day the best thing I could do was keep pushing my chest work out as hard as I could. So after hundreds of push ups later my body told me I had enough I almost passed out I got light headed. I laid back for a few seconds I knew I wasn't done yet so I got back up and did some more. Later I almost passed again my mind still unwilling to stop I rested for a moment got up and did some more again. Again I got really light headed this time I came close to passing out, yet my heart didn't have enough yet still hungry for more I continued to do more push ups. Finally after getting light head again I felt like I worked out enough since it was like 11 pm or 12 I figured I need to rest some before I went back to work and start all over again. Apparently for about a week I had to drop my after work- work out barely made it through work as it was.....okay I have written enough for now I forgot my original intent...something about it is time for my next step..