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So I rarely remember my dreams but two of the dreams I remember from the last 6 months have been violent, Negative and downright scary.
It worries me slightly that even though I watch very few murder mysteries, I am a kind accepting person who would never kill a mosquito I have had vivid scenes of me hurting someone else in my subconscious in my dreams.
I had reasons - I was being attacked by a knife, and crushed up glass wielding maniac in one - after a ridiculous
when I was 7 I was a model for a family friend who is an illustrator. He used photos of me on a carousel as a basis for a little girl in his sculptures.
I went and interviewed him in October last year for an assignment and he offered me one of the sculptures, I was so lost for words and when I found them again all I could say was yes.
His illustrations are 3D sculptures which are then the photograps are used for the book illustrations.
Im sitting on my mums laptop, In 38 degrees (Celsius). Appreciating the fact that I am sitting alone in my loungeroom. The story here is last night I stayed at a friends house. It was a different experience.
I have known this man for 5 years now, actually seeing each other once a year at a big church camp. He felt strangely comfortable right away, just gave off trustworthy vibes or something. I rarely trust people with the big stuff that is important to me, but strait away we were
So its 1:20 in the morning here in Australia and I am crying again. I started crying at about 10:30 after a lovely evening with friends....
I'm exhausted last night I got home at 12:40 after a hens night. This is probably adding to it. I was having a conversation tonight with one of my friends, while we were doing the dishes. I started the conversation by warning him I was a bit deaf when I am tired. More deaf because my brain retreats
I am in the last semester of the course I have been doing since the start of 2010. The 13 years before that I was in formal schooling, Prep to year 12.
So I am currently in my last time of study, My last time of certainty for the time being.
One Thing I am certain of I will be a qualified Library Technician at the end of this year.
I will be 20
Thats all I have that is entirely certain.
Change scares me, Always has, Probably always