midnightstar

Disappear

A lonely soul is waiting
For her chance to say goodbye
Waiting for her time to go
Her chance to just disappear

She's fading away from life
No one knows she's there
She just wants to disappear
Never bother her friends again

Her family never heard her cries
Nor saw her tears falling down her face
As she wished she could go
Just disappear from the place she calls home

...

It's all my fault, I should never have given Dylan away. He's been missing for a week and there's been no sightings of him. I should have taken my ex back then Dylan would be safe with me.

I can never do anything right, I've been messing everything up since the year I was born (1989), I'm not good enough for anyone. I deserve as much hell as can be dished out to me. No one IRL seems to care it's tearing me apart. I feel so guilty. I can't turn to anyone. I can't make everything right ...

In an ideal world no one would have to suffer, no one would lose anything they love. No animals would be killed for fun, people wouldn't wage war with each other and people would willingly share all they have with other people.

Seriously, why do people have to be so nasty towards other living creatures? Why can't everyone just get along with each other? Why does life have to cause everyone so much pain? Why can't all animals know what it's like to be loved? Why are children starving ...

I remember you, but do you remember me? Have you forgiven me for hurting you? You saved my life, I'd have died if it wasn't for you. I wish I could change the past. You were the only one who cared when I was suffering hell with the ex. You were a furry pillow to cry into. I should have taken the ex back then at least you'd be safe and happy.

Now you're gone forever, I've lost you darling snugglebug. My precious babes. If I could change the past I would. I miss you and I hope God blesses ...

Do you know how it feels to wake up every morning wishing for death? Do you know how it feels to go to bed every night praying for death? Do you know how it feels to be fighting against the chains of depression which are dragging you down into the pit of despair, watching your whole life being ripped away from you and thrown into the rubbish dump? Do you know how it feels to be cast aside and looked at like you're a pile of dog poop that someone accidentally trod in?

Have you walked ...