by, 11-11-2009 at 02:31 PM (1040 Views)
I was doing so well, being so strong. I thought I'd adjusted to the way things are and was coping like a champ. Till yesterday. I cried. So much for being a bastion of strength and positive encouragement. It was just for a moment. I closed my eyes and took a couple deep breaths and regained my composure, but I was deeply ashamed.
And this morning. I'm sorry you called at the wrong time. I'm sorry I took offense at your words and went off on you. You didn't deserve it. You only mean to offer helpful advice. But you don't understand. You don't know how hard I've tried. You don't seem to believe that I've done all those things you said, and they just didn't work. The situation is more difficult than you can know from a distance. But it's not your fault. You have always been there, and you mean well. I'm sorry I cried, and I'm sorry you had to listen to my hysterical ranting.
I'll be strong again tomorrow, I promise.