LadyJava

sounds like me in current days

sometimes we have to breakdown before we break though... but strength is at the core, so i'm sure you'll be both resilient and triumphant with whatever you're going though! *hug*

I held off crying for years, all of my "mature" life until a point last year. Things got so bad I thought my life was completely pointless and meaningless. I thought that the only goal I had ever had in my life has been rendered impossible and worthless. It was all so dark, and it was all very lonely.

It also paled in comparison to things I had been through before, or at least I thought. But it was so fresh because it hit a part of me that had never known that kind of heartache and loss before. That hope had never been tried, never been shaken, never been attacked.

But there is no shame in crying, and there never will be. Maybe you feel shame because it's a personal defeat for you, I'm sorry I don't know you better to be able to tell. But I hope you never feel that the act of crying is a sign of weakness by itself. It's a tool to give us greater strength in more trying times ahead, and to start to mend all that has been broken.

From afar I have a muted impression of you, but you feel like a strong person. You feel like someone's who's genuine. For whatever makes you cry, I hope you find a remedy. But I hope even more than you'll never be afraid to cry.

As they say: Its always darkest before the dawn

Peace: Thank you, I really like that: "sometimes we have to breakdown before we break though..." Thanks for the hug and the words of encouragement. It's good to know we are not alone in struggles, isn't it?

EvilByte: I guess I just thought I was passed crying over things, and it had been quite a while. In a way it's a good thing - I've felt so numb for so long. It was just the fact that I did it in front of people who I feel depend on me to be strong and do what needs to be done. You're right, we shouldn't be afraid to cry. Maybe it's good for us to be tested and shaken from time to time. I hope things are getting better for you now?

Turran: One of my favorite sayings. I needed that reminder. Thank you.

Thank you all. It's good to have support when we're going through the rough times. Love and hugs to you all!

*Hugggggggs Happy fiercely* Thanks, Lance. I needed that! :D

Javalava, you know I'm always here for you, and you know how to find me.

Grim, I'm so lucky to have your friendship! Your advice was completely helpful. And thanks for just listening. *huggggggggs*