La Petite Sirène

I understand this completely. I struggle a lot with the apparent meaninglessness of life.

I struggle between life being full of meaning, and none of that meaning actually having any importance in the grand scheme of things. I naturally analyze everything, figure out why it is important, why it exists, what it means etc. And then I look at what I have just done, what a huge waste of time it was because, essentially, none of it really matters in the end. But for some reason, it does matter.

There's a constant battle going on between whether or not this sense of meaning has any bearing on anything at all, if that makes any sense. Kind of like being trapped in two worlds: one where everything is full of symbolism, and the other where everything is stark and plain and just is what it is. I am totally describing The Matrix/Plato's Cave right now, but that is honestly what it feels like. I'm watching shadows dancing on the wall, and I'm stuck between them and the harsh light of the real world.

Often found myself wondering the same thing, does over-thinking on matters actually matter? Does figuring out how something/someone/some situation works matter at all when everything is ever-changing? So you know what I've been doing? I'm sitting here at 11:30AM in a slight daze, mulling over the details of what's been done in the past week - "stuck between them and the harsh light of the real world". Came across a quote yesterday by Ray Bradbury, you might like it (?) :
“gently lie and prove the lie true.... What seems a lie is a ramshackle need, wishing to be born.”
Instead, half the time we're overcome by fear and self-doubt. Then the fear and self-doubt causes one to alienate others that they may like very much. Self-consciousness kills creativity. Hehe, a friend called me the destroyer of everything good, and yes I am guilty of that though I do not wish to. I'd like to call it, validating what's really true and cutting out the bullshit. Too many bunnies have been stepped over by my aloofness, though, so shame on me. :(

On the other hand, had let Fe+Ne get the best of me there, running into vicious cycles that logic doesn't see much sense in. *shrugs* I usually find it hard to let go, but everything goes away at the end... what was that somewhat cheesy line people used to say? Don't be sad that it's ended but glad that it happened? Words are usually unnecessary, I guess, easily forgettable and the one thing that usually sticks with people is how you make them feel. :)

Thank you for your reply. :)

Originally Posted by apathy

Came across a quote yesterday by Ray Bradbury, you might like it (?) :

“gently lie and prove the lie true.... What seems a lie is a ramshackle need, wishing to be born.”

Oh wow, this is perfect! This is going on my wall along with the other quotes that I find to be accurate.

Originally Posted by apathy

Hehe, a friend called me the destroyer of everything good, and yes I am guilty of that though I do not wish to. I'd like to call it, validating what's really true and cutting out the bullshit. Too many bunnies have been stepped over by my aloofness, though, so shame on me. :(

I can relate to this in some ways, because I can't stand it to see people fooling themselves. And I know I am guilty of doing it myself, and that it's not my place to step in and burst someone's bubble - nobody wants to see reality. I just feel like it's a huge disservice to oneself to deny the truth of the matter.

I happen to like bunnies, though. ;)

Originally Posted by apathy

Words are usually unnecessary, I guess, easily forgettable and the one thing that usually sticks with people is how you make them feel. :)

This is true. And I guess in a lot of ways I am content with my discontent, because as a result of it I am able to help others see the truth of things (if they're inclined to, I guess - and sometimes when they're not :P). If the important thing is how I make other people feel, I guess I am doing an okay job of things. :)