Kytaari's Self-Discovery Journal

I had to fall sometime. All that enthusiasm I've been feeling these last few days has completely evaporated from my body, and now I'm left brooding once more.

I'm thinking about my career and all the progress and knowledge that I've obtained. It appears to me as though it was these last couple of years that I made the most progress. Substantial progress, actually. I wonder if it's just gonna multiply even more from here.

I would like to take the time on this blog to think aloud more about relationships. I've never been in a romantic relationship in my entire life, and I'm 22. I'm wondering what it feels like. What goes on? What makes the lifestyle different than being single? And is someone like me equipped for this sort of thing? I can have a very unbalanced mind sometime.

I've also never held a real job. I'm probably not gonna get on any time soon. But I'm also wondering what working is like. I guess it depends immensely on the job you perform.

I've studied a lot of things, but I can't say I have any real world experience. How necessary is real world experience for someone like me?

I'm kind of neglecting my relationships at the moment. I just don't see the point. I want to keep studying and learning my craft. I feel like I don't have time to keep up with my friends. It would be nice to relax with someone I know though.