by, 11-08-2009 at 09:45 PM (1245 Views)
As much as i try to understand the world, people and myself, the harder i work at it the more confused and bewlidered i end up. I never seem to actually get whats going on.
I want someone to just spell it out for me as plainly as they can. WTF. I don't get why it is so difficult for people to just be straight forward.
I am completely exasperated.
I completely understand why some INTJs get so hostile to people.
Too many years in the whip's back swing.
Morality is the cry of the victim and power is the cry of the attacker.
Why bother to care?
If the planet is full of senseless bugs, why not squish them and sweep them away?
I just don't see the value.
People won't be honest with you, but expect you to be honest with them. Then when your honest they don't like the true you. So you hold back so that on the outside you are the person that everyone expects (which in reality the demands vis-a-vis your social contract). Then they "like" you.
You tell people what you really think and they are scared of you.
So you can't be yourself but you don't want to be this thing, the perfect image of society.
So then what are you? Whats left?
Why not please yourself despite the cost to others?
I am Susan. No matter what i show on the outside. That is a threat.