Old Ghosts or There are No Accidents
by, 06-19-2010 at 06:48 AM (486 Views)
It's funny how Life works, especially if there are no accidents or coincidences.
Like landing on a rainy day to constant images of planes skidding off runways going through your head. I suppose there is nothing weird about this, unless it's something you never do because you think if you did, you would activate the laws of attraction and increase it's chances of it happening.
So, is it an accident that 15 minutes before I am looping these uncharactheristic thoughts , a plane slid off the runway at the same airport?
The book I was reading In flight? The Power of Coincidence, wriiten by a man who is fascinated by Jung's theory of synchronicity and has spent a good portion of his life doing case studies on the phenomena.
So now, am I looking for stuff, or am I "[I]seeing" [/I]it.?
"Do not procastinate and notice how easy doors open for you"
A message I received.
In two days. I have seen cobalt blue. The plate was not the same but the model was.
I ran into J, outside of the Mac's, where I would be dropped off and when I would go see J. the next day I saw J's girlfriend at the Starbucks on Elgin. Both were random encounters. Both in places where Old Ghosts haunt. Is it a coincidence that the only 2 people I have run into are the only people we knew in common in places we have marked?
I have a windfall. It is nice and unexpected. It adds to my total the exact amount I said I needed or would be ideal as opposed to what I had. I needed double what I had, and now it is doubled.
Nothing comes without a cost. To get the windfall I had to go places.
So as I walked toward Lebretton I started to feel my stomach knot. I then began the winding 97 journey along the parkway and finally arrived at Lincoln feilds, where more Ghosts haunt.
I tried to ignore it, My body was doing somersaults inside but my mind was dealing.Then Bayshore.
This is when things got surreal. I thought to myself.
I have come here and I don't remember my address. But then it came and so did my old phone number which I had been trying to remember for months.
I got what I needed and quckly left.
But it was not over.
If I though Bayshore was haunted, Nothing could have prepared me for Lindenlea.
Going there was a wild goose chase. I had no contact info for the person I needed to contact.
I figured I would just sit out front, and eventually someone would come along and I would ask them for help.
I thought I was preapared to do this.
But as I approached the St Patrick bridge , I began to feel physically ill.
As I walked up Langevin I was sure I was going to lose whatever was in my stomach. I was no longer prepared at all to sit there, I needed someone and I needed them now!!!
Too many thoughts too many feelings,catching shadows out of the corner of my eye. This felt like a bad place. The imprint of our pain was everywhere.
I stood for about 10 seconds just looking at the window, when the front door to the building opened and a lovey young lady appeard and she just stood there.
So I said "Hi" and smiled.. she responded in kind with both a smile and Hi
Me" I used to live in apt 2"
Her " I live in apt 2, we just moved in"
me" Just moved in?"
her "yeah begining of June, hey did you have a problem with bugs?"
me " I left at the end of December. we didn't have any bug problems , not really, a few spiders, a few flys in the late summer"
Her " No earwigs?"
Me "maybe a few"
Her" Well the place is infested with them now, I just came out to call the landlord"
Me " That's awesome!!! I came here trying to find his number"
She gave me the number, I said my thanks and we exchanged goodbyes.
I was thankful for ease of that, because I wanted to get out of there .. I actually broke into a run.
I soon found myself sitting by the river crying.
I kept exepcting to see the turtles come up on the Log . but they never showed up.
I then colected myself and went and registered for school.
I still can't remember the Phone Number for Lindenlea.
Were my tears a purge or a longing?
This city is haunted By Old Ghosts. If there are no accidents, is an accident inevidble?