by, 01-05-2010 at 03:29 PM (906 Views)
[B]The ongoing musings of a type 6 Counter-phobe[/B]
By Decree of Leicestershire County Court I am officially
I have dreaded this moment for well over a year ..
The power that word has had over me, the value I placed on it has been soul destroying..
I feel absolutely fantastic .. I feel like the dead weight of all my failures has been lifted.
I feel free .. I feel me
I feel like standing a roof and screaming
[B]" Take that you fuckers!!!" [/B]
I would have never dreamed I could feel so alive again..So right in myself
My ex wife is lovely.. But I should have never married her..
and NOW I know what has been my problem for the last 3 years..
But I forgive myself..
I apologize to those who had to bear the brunt of my shame..
To those who told me "it doesn't matter..it's just a word"..
To my bosses for their patience as I struggled with simple daily living..
To my friends that I closed off from..
To my dear Lover who I pushed away and hurt time and again
and to my ex wife who should have never been there in the 1st
You deserved better
I miss you all..
It's over and I am still alive..
Sometimes what you think you fear is simply what you really need..