INFJoshua

the introvert has found a nest...
it's been a few days now. i haven't seen anyone and i don't really want to. my father went to hong kong so i took over his place while he's gone. haha! i've pushed a sofa in front of the computer and made a little nest i've been sleeping on it and just using the computer the whole time. it's so great being alone!!!! i love it!!! i'm begining to center again. i had lost myself for awhile. i think i'm gonna be one of those guys that needs to disapear into the woods for a few days every month. which should be good because i'm moving in with my family in the states in about 2 weeks. they bought a big house and own a huge amount of forest. i plan on going there allot, but who knows. the idea might seem allot less attractive when i'm there.

childs entertainment...
while i'm in the empty apartment i'm rewatching a cartoon called sonic x. it's for kids but it's perfect for me right now. i've noticed that i don't really watch things to focus on them. i watch them to fantasize. it's a light hearted show with very little real conflict. people aren't dying, cheating on each other, having mindless self loathing sex. it's a happy little world they've created, and it takes my fantasies to a happy place i can almost feel my Ni at work, sorting out the heavy things of life while i'm watching it. or maybe that's just brain cells dying who knows...

am i a loyal skeptic???
i read more about enneagram a few days ago. when i was reading it i was pretty convinced i'm a type 6. at the time it seemed just like me. but i'm not comfortable saying for sure yet. i still may be a type 2 or 4, but i don't really think i am. just holding off to be safe. i think i'll read some more about it after i post this cuz i still know very little about it.

ouch... my head....
hmmm.... the internet......