It's this feeling I hate, when I can't feel anything. when i no longer give a shit about you and you no longer care about me. I guess it got too rough babe. I guess that drama was just too much for us. did we burn out, did we forget to love, are we getting old, sick of each other even. I thought life osmehow renewed itself, I thought relationships became stronger and fortified over time.
maybe it's me.
I am just too fucked up to even know up from down anymore.
to the lion- in my dreams I will paint the sky, I will type through time. find you and breathe you into me, see you take me with you and into the next, what comes and goes into the night.
I ramble through some thoughts and drible out my exsistential timeframe, waiting to find what I never knew exsisted.
please refrain from killing me.
I cannot tame a beast so strong and golden bright. laughing through all the moments I have had and will never feel again...
It isn't so much where I am from or what I do, it isn't me and it isn't you.
to create a work that wonders away, to save the dieing darkness for another day.
to expel the shadows within your soul, that is my way.
if you feel scared about the inner world, don't want it to come out, I am here to guide you, no need to scream and shout.
I might just be a simple mirror, a reflection of your mind,
but you are teh ones I care for in real time.
It's strange to
FUCK YOU TYRANT!!!
fuck you and your false wisdom.
I will not bow to you and your unjust rule.
I may seem complacent now, but I will have to wait until you die.
I may kill you myself.
I don't forget.
thats the truth.
I don't forget.
so as time passes and I am subject to your rule I take all accounts into my soul, all passing moments and remember them.
a peaceful outer serenity that hides a manipulative
I find I tend to and feel obligated to overly respond to many posts...
like I can't help myself.
it's like I don't think anyone is going to fully understand where I am coming from so I overcompensate and just blahb on about it, repeating my one thought multiple times in many different ways.
partly due to the fact I don't want to be misunderstood and there are a lot of questions in my head that I feel I always have to ask or get others opinions about.