FaveteLinguis

Feels like the winds are shifting again, and I haven't felt these kind of tremors in years. This military gig has been one hell of a trip, a lot of fun, and enriched my life in numerous ways. I can honestly say I wouldn't recognize myself if I had traveled back in time and presented myself before I. No more constant worrying about whether I can handle life in the social arena or what changes may come. Quite a bit of a 180 when I want thrills, adventure, and challenge in my life. Though I can't start shaking the feeling that I may not stay in for life anymore, there's a similar job that I'm interested in pursuing. Pay's good and offers the travel experiences I want. One more deployment is what's always rolling through my head......

Welp, maybe it's time to start that long and aggravating journey back into introspection. See where I really want to head in life. The end goals remain the same, haven't deviated from that for the longest time. 3 years is the longest I've been able to keep my eye on that prize, and I'm content with the progress I'm making towards that. It's the immediate future that's got my eyes shifting on the horizon. 5 years? What to do? I think I have a clue, my bud's doing it and I don't have to worry about the qualifications. I meet those easily. Apparently not too many people apply for it either. Hmm just maybe.

Hah, 7 years ago I would've said I was nuts and focused back on her. Still can't keep her out of my head. It's just a dull whisper, white noise, but she's still there. Meh, I think I'll go see a therapist when I get back home. There's some areas I want a professional opinion on.