faun

in my mind i don't feel like i exist if there is no one to notice me. to be alone feels empty but not as pointless as trying to communicate with others and just getting knocked back and feeling more alone. i don't know, there's nowhere to ever really be.
when i'm alone i feel physically and mentally alone, i'm aware that there is no one there but myself and i hate myself. i hate her thoughts

Level 7: When dreams fail, become self-inhibiting and angry at self, depressed and alienated from self and others, blocked and emotionally paralyzed. Ashamed of self, fatigued and unable to function.