DJArendee

One thing I'm starting to learn as life goes on.

People come and go. Best friends enter your life, and then they leave it when they move elsewhere. After standing on a highway of so many trusted close friends made, to watch them come and go in my life, I'm starting to understand why its so much easier for ISTP's to just move off into the mountains and live by themselves. Any time I move to a new area, there is this large weedout process where I make sharp comments toward everyone I meet. I make a lot of enemies, but I also make a lot of best friends almost instantly. The problem comes when I all these guys move on in life to do other things and I'm left alone once again. Friends get married and their wives get in the way... friends move out of state... friends move to other countries...

Its why I don't do one night stands... I don't go to strip clubs... I don't meet women at bars... I get attached too fast, and the inevitable detatchment afterward is too painful to deal with. Why bother? Get away from me. Everyone is a threat.

I spent 3 weeks completely by myself in this house. I talked to myself. I never got lonely, in fact, I had a blast. I just don't get it. I want to live in a community where I get to know everyone, and no one leaves. That's why I come to personality cafe, but even then, members come and go. Either this is life, and I need to just learn to keep pushing forward, or maybe there is that community that's just for me.