by, 07-05-2011 at 05:57 PM (152 Views)
I've been wanting to start a journal for a while and I can't think of a better place than to do it here. I'm starting off a new chapter in my life where I'm going to quit smoking weed on a daily basis and even a weekly basis. I'm going to be sober! It'll be hard, but rewarding in the long run as it has had many negative effects on my social life. It's funny that this all started with a great shroom trip that me and my best friend experienced. I'm going to try and surround myself with positive influence to help me get through this and this forum seems like a great place to start.
My life has been full of doubt. Like many INFP's, I am very sensitive and constantly worry about other peoples acceptance of me. I feel though that many people who have rejected me have done so because of their own insecurity. I've still hung around some of these people who constantly bring me down because of my own insecurity. I believed that they were right for a long time, but even if they are, there has been nothing constructive in the condescending ways that I've been treated. The point of this isn't for me to bitch about my life, but to actually change.
I have GREAT friends that I am engulfing myself in and a passion for study that is driving me through college. I feel that this is a new chapter in my life where I can feel good without the constant aid of drugs.
I'm very excited!