d_arnold

This is my first blog entry, and I think I'll be using this more in the future. Somehow I just feel I want to express myself and my ideas through blogs.

This week I finished my first reserve service and I believe that there'll be a lot of them coming. It's like 1,5 years since I finished my army service and now I had to go back! I've heard that some doesn't receive that reserve service invitation at all or gets those after being in civilian life for like 5-10 years. Before going there I was a bit afraid of what kind of new people I'm going to meet and how I'll manage, well some doubting. Luckily the place was the same than 1,5 years ago and I already knew the trainers we had. Now I can say that it went actually quite well, meeting new people didn't drain my batteries at all, I think the reason for this was that the leaders we had in our team was actually introverts or maybe it's that I've already created some sort of power saving profile for myself at the time of the army service. Also, I think that spending all the time outside near nature was quite much refreshing and comforting.

My training in the army service was military police group leader, ranked corporal (lower sergeant). I spent 1 year there and that time gave me an opportunity to explore myself and my hidden abilities. I was shy and introverted as hell, also my self-esteem and self-confidence was shit. I think I've managed to handle those things into a very manageable level. I'm no shy, but I can't get my introvertism out of me, I just have to live with it. It took quite a while, couple of years, to get my self-esteem to the high level from zero. I have investigated and also came up with good methoids to increase self-esteem and self-confidence, so I can help anyone with those issues.

In this army reserve service I was placed in a military police team where almost all were (group) leaders. The team itself is actually a somesort of a special ops team and it'll have trainings at least once a year. I have never heard that this kind of team existed and I was surpirsed like hell because I was chosen to be part of this team. I feel honoured and this indeed increased my self-esteem and also flamed up a spark that made me want to join more those reserve service trainings. I feel like I've been in a vacation from "normal" daily life and now my mind is refreshed by all of those ideas that reserve service week gave me. I noticed that I have forgotten a lot from my army service or some skills has gotten a bit rusty and I just can't wait to practice those things again.

The week itself was mentally and physically tiring because we didn't have much chance to get some rest, we were doing somesort of task all the time, like being in an observation point, patrolling, guarding prisoners, having special cases and extra training. This training week was quite much different from normal training this special team usually having. The reason was wide base drill and there was almost like 3000 people (those who made normal army service, reserve service and staff.) One thing that made me feel much excited was that we were allowed be in a Patria Pasi!! (=armoured personnel carrier) This was my first time being in it.

I have gained leadership training and basic skills in army, but now I think I have to improve them a lot because I see som much potential in me. Next books I think I'll be reading are related to leading.