d_arnold

After realizing how insecure I really was and after working with that I have noticed something different, something new in me. I kind of never thought about that I'd feel this way. Before, when I was under influence of my insecurity, I was being really needy and kind of manipulative to my surroundings. I tried other people make me feel safe instead of me making myself feel safe.

There's actually great differences between those two ways of making one's self feel safe. Other one is ...

I just can't stop learning new things about myself, can I? Well, definitely not and I'm not willing to stop it either. I've done some insights about myself lately and also learned more about emotions and stuff,

I've been quite stressed lately so I've had to do deep breathing exercise frequently. Haven't done meditation itself because I'm either lazy or just trying to find other ways to express my emotions. Perhaps I'll make a change for that, like keep reminding me about it more often. ...

Fear? What an interesting subject to discuss about. I assume that anyone has something they are afraid of and some has even plenty of them. I belong to the latter. I actually am quite fear ridden and everything I'm afraid of cannot be counted with two hands, but the worst ones actually can be. Judging from the information I've perceived I think my worst fears are fear of abandonment, fear of high places, fear of pain/getting hurt, fear of dark waters, fear of being alone, fear of totally new situations ...

I've been doing quite a lot of physical exercises lately in order to stay fit and while doing that I was observing my mental well-being. I've felt this many times and this time I decided to write a blog post about it.

Yesterday I did some regular exercise stuff and while ending the set I tried out how many squats I could perform and I did 100 and I was able to do few more, but didn't, and my goal is 200 (irrelevant but check it out two hundred squats), ok, after that I started to ...

Just recently I noticed that I was being too different compared to that time when I was happy couple of months ago. I slowly stopped meditating because for some silly reasons I couldn't see any reasons to do it daily. I was so wrong...

It was a dive to my shadow where I didn't feel like I was being unhealthy. Meditation is one of my ways to vent and especially express my suppressed emotions and while there was no that I kind of started to build an inner conflict. I all the time pushed ...