by, 01-09-2009 at 06:29 PM (2776 Views)
There are days like today where I just give up. I honestly don't understand people like I thought I did. I want to so badly, but then all I ever end up doing is getting trashed for attempting to be a good person. I've had my best friend near me for almost 15 years now. And I don't think I know him anymore. I didn't find out until way after the fact about his situation with his family. I know we've never shared extremely personal stuff, but he could have trusted me with this.
Now I'm kind of worried that he'll end up going down a dark path within the next 10 years. And that's sad because he was always the first to laugh and he kept me grounded when I was falling apart. He doesn't even bother to talk online anymore, it's ridiculous. Right now I'm thinking that our friendship is over because there is no "up" when it comes to him, he'll drag you in the opposite direction.
And I've never done this blogging thing and I don't know why I bother to. It feels like I'm just bitching just to fill up the time.