Isolation - A defense mechanism
by, 05-26-2012 at 01:36 AM (287 Views)
Like many introverts I don't spend much time with people. I often go weeks or months without speaking to anyone I know. I've lost faith in my old friends. These were people I'd take a bullet for but after 2 years of me trying to keep in touch with them I'd much rather give them a bullet than take one for them. I don't get attached to people very easily and it took a lot of mental preparation and work to start these relationships and it seems that they only spent time with me out of convenience. They occasionally speak to me on Facebook, usually looking for advice, then they disappear as quickly as they arrive.
I've spent most of my life alone - my friends discard me when they find someone better. I can count on one hand the number of people I trusted like family and every single time they've tossed me aside. I've learned that my friends will abandon me whether it takes months or years it's a certainty.
I've always had a difficult time learning to trust people - now I understand that I can't trust anyone, ever. I've given up on the idea of having friends.