apprehended

I registered on this site back in September of 2010, and since then I have been trying to figure out my type, but haven't been able to settle definitely on a type. My interest in typing myself has been off and on, mostly off, since then but it bugs me that I cannot for the life of me arrive at a type. So I thought I would write out a post explaining my thoughts on this, so that I can have a record of it, and for anyone else who may be interested.

Pi Functions
I've been reading through Lenore Thomson's book over the past few days and really focusing on the process she describes for each of the functions. These are my conclusions so far:

1. I doubt that I am a Pi dominant (IxxJ types) because of how Lenore described their inner world of perceptions. It seems to be this "world" of subjective perceptions about reality that they trust to guide them through life.

2. Ni seems to be this inner world of perceptions whose meanings can completely change from one day (maybe even moment) to the next. I can't relate at all to this, I definitely don't have an inner world like this. I can't even imagine an inner world where all your perceptions can change as much as it seems an Ni inner world can.

3. Si is also an inner world of perceptions, but it examines every fact from all sides to figure out which "box" it goes in, and then it is set and becomes an integrated part of the inner world of the Si-dom, and the Si-dom himself; it is highly unlikely it will be moved from that box. I can't say that I relate much to this either because it seems to be that an Si-dom builds an understanding of things detail by detail, which is not an approach to taking in information that I can really relate to either. I tend to take in the big picture and ignore all the details.

Speculation
In fact, thinking about this inner world thing has been questioning whether or not I am even an introvert. I've always thought of myself as an introvert and I am seen by others as an introvert because socially I do not display typical extraverted qualities. However I know that type is more about your internal mental processes than your behaviors.

It could be possible that in terms of cognitive functions I could be an extravert, but would lack the typical extraverted characteristics (social outgoingness). When I was young (elementary school) I remember that when my Dad would get home I would run to the door to greet him, but a few times I remember him yelling at me. Eventually this led to me being afraid (thus not going) to greet him when he got home, which eventually led to me being afraid of talking to anyone, which in turn led to me not having many close friends all the way to the present day (26 currently). The lack of close friends (which I desperately wanted (even in elementary school) led to me feeling lonely and depressed, which drove me to the isolating behaviors I exhibited in high school (video games, not socializing out of fear). All this of course leads to a false sense of self. The events are all true and factual, but this is just a theory concerning how they came about, so it might be wrong.

Next up are the Ji functions though, so introvert isn't eliminated yet.