A Blog About Nothing

Yeah, I don't know where to begin with this. I haven't posted a blog in a long time, so I thought that I'd do something. I've been making a few threads in personality forum in order to get a true understanding of myself. (Sorry if that came off as annoying.) It seems to come much more easily to many other people here than it does to me. They can pinpoint what functions they use. "Oh, I constantly use Ti to do X" or whatever. They seem to have a sort of mental clarity that I do not. I seem to have an a complete inability to analyze myself.

Furthermore, I don't experience myself as being something definite, if that makes sense. It seems as if my internal self is just a fog, with me performing actions without really knowing what it is I'm actually doing. The only time I know what I'm doing is when I'm imagining something to entertain myself. I know I'm creating this fantasy world, though not a very original one, since it's mainly consists of crappy fanfiction ideas and bad ideas for crossovers. Which is an interesting thing in and of itself. I can take characters I already know about and a universe I already know about and have a bit of fun with it. But if I try to create something of my own, nothing substantial comes. I've come up with maybe one or two ideas, but they're nothing but ideas, and I have no idea as to how to create or develop any interesting characters or create a complex storyline from it. I don't want to become a writer, mind, but it seems as if this inability to create something that comes from myself rather than the outside world makes me wonder if there's something missing in me...

It's as if I'm both disconnected from the world and from myself. I don't know where I am...