yesiknowbut

Well, the world seems to be settling back on its axis. Some of this is him, some of it's me....he'd started to get his house in order anyway, less drinking, less shouting, more laughter, all good....and then he read a recent magazine article on psychopaths which gave the assessment list for psychopathic tendencies, against which you score 0,1 or 2 for 20 characteristics...well, he didn't actually score himself, but rates at least one on 18 of 20 characteristics. Ladies and gents, I married a psychopath! Thankfully not a criminal, violent or promiscuous one, but.....this has kicked off some reflection in himself and hey, maybe he now realises that I may not be the one with the major problem here....so that was good. I feel like we are in better balance and I'm not the one having to do all the running to keep the home harmonious.

Apart from that I've had a cathartic week in which I had a week off work and got my research sorted out, the conference I'm organising up to date, and my study well on the way to being tidy. I feel like my life is on track for the first time in a long time.

It's an immense relief, not feeling miserable and stressed all the time.