Say hello to goodbye
by, 07-11-2012 at 08:50 PM (133 Views)
Dear my cute, lovely sheepie who happens to be in America right now,
So the time has come, huh? You're already leaving for new countries. Your kitty is still here waiting for your text, though she knows you wouldn't be able to text her.
How I need you to be here right now. I'm supposed to be strong and get through with the operation but I can't. The doctors tell me to wait until this afternoon to collect the results. I really hope there would be no surgery. But if there is in the end, I want you to know I love you.
I wish I had the strength to express my emotions.
A sheep and a cat, loving each other, is that a sin? Always kept apart by the guardian of the moon, who is also in love with the same cat. Always pulled away from each other by fate.
I know I'm being dramatic. Just another part of me.
It's been a long time since I wrote a complete fiction - half a year, maybe? It used to be the only way for me to get rid of unnecessary pessimistic feelings. I thought when I had you, I wouldn't need to do that anymore. But you have to leave.
I shouldn't be complaining. After all, who am I to force you to stay here, in a laid back country with no possible happy future?
I'm coming to the US, too. For college. Stanford or not, still better than Vietnam. I love Vietnam because it's where I met you and my best friends, where I grow up. But if I were to choose, I would choose to go with you.
I hope you're having a great time. It all would be meaningless if you aren't. Aircrafts are your dream as well as mine from the beginning. But only you have the ability to pursue it. I've lost my chance ever since I was born.
To think back, I've never stopped looking for a plane flying across where I stand whenever I look up to the sky. What a magnificent beauty... though I would never be able to reach it.
How pathetic of me.
If you were here, you would say I'm beautiful. In your eyes.
My sheepie has never let me down.
I love you.
P.s. Are you reading this right now? I hope not...