The Incessant and Aimless Ramblings of a 3-7-1 (?)
by, 12-25-2012 at 11:35 PM (189 Views)
I'm not what most people would envision a type 3 to be. My tri-type is 3-7-1, but the order is up for debate. Maybe this will provide others and even myself with some perspective on my typing. I'm going to describe myself as honestly as I possibly can. I'm aware that there is probably some bias, but I will definitely avoid it as well as I can. We'll see how this goes. Let the aimless rambling begin :P
I am currently typed as a 3. I put forth the strongest of efforts when I'm working on something I believe in... something I'm passionate about. I seek to achieve what I find as valuable, and I think most descriptions of 3s make it out to seem as if 3s only care about what others find as valuable. I don't think that's correct. Anyways, the amount of passion I have for working toward my goals is indescribable. I like working my way to the top and doing so quickly. I don't like working my ass off only to find out that my work has gone unappreciated. If I'm working twice as a hard as the chumps that are making the same amount of money I'm making (or more), then I expect and will even demand a raise if pushed to that point. It's not fair for me to work my ass off and get paid the same amount or less than those who are slack in their work. I'm every employer's wet dream, and I demand to be treated fairly. I take pride in my work, and I refuse to work for anyone who doesn't appreciate my time and efforts. If I'm going to scratch your back, you sure as hell better scratch mine.
I enjoy attention and admiration even in the negative forms (being disliked, hated, etc.) I don't usually actively seek it out, but the attention does tend to find me, and that's how it's always been. No matter what I do, I seem to attract some sort of attention. It doesn't matter if I'm in the workplace, volunteering, competing in sports or academic matches, or even just walking into a store. It's just something that's always been there whether I intentionally provoked it or not. I've never not received any attention. I've never been altogether ignored or unnoticed by the world.
I honestly am not bothered by other's opinions of me. I don't get an inflated head when complimented nor does my self-esteem waver when put down. My self-esteem does come from within, but at the same time, there's never been a time when I wasn't receiving some sort of attention from others so perhaps that affirmation means more to me than I think it does... but I don't think so, lol. When put down, I feel like I'm being challenged, and I genuinely enjoy that. Knowing that someone doubts me or even just dislikes me makes reaching my goals just that much sweeter. It's both humorous and oddly flattering that anyone would dislike me for my successes, strengths, honesty, integrity, or what have you.
When push comes to shove, I'm usually pretty good about not paying too much attention to my emotions when there's work that needs to be done. I really like that about myself. I can deal with the emotions on my own time if I want. Even in emergency situations, I remain very calm. It's almost as if the panic of the situation doesn't really phase me. You just have to follow the proper procedures and that's all there is to it. Just do what you're supposed to do, and you'll be fine. There's no need to panic or freak out. Just take all the measures that need to be taken.
The only opinions I care about are the opinions of those who are close to me. For instance, if I've ever actively sought approval from anyone, it's my family because they know who I am. They know my flaws, my faults, and everything inbetween. They are the only people that are supposed to love me unconditionally and vice versa, so when I feel unaccepted or disliked by them, it does hurt. It hurts a lot. At the end of the day though, I remind myself that I have only ever been disliked by family members because I stand firm in specfic beliefs. I do stand up for myself and what I believe in, and that has made me someone less respectable in their eyes. They don't appreciate the fact that my opinions are different. They have difficulty respecting me because I'm not afraid to take a stand or counter their opinions. I just don't understand it though. I still give them respect even though I disagree with them. Is it really that hard to be respectful even if you don't agree with me? And for that matter, I've been good about admitting when I'm wrong... but when I get wronged, I'm not shown the same respect most of the time. Being a stand-up gal definitely has its downside, but I honestly wouldn't have it any other way. I would rather be true to myself and my beliefs and be rejected by those I love than not stand by my beliefs and be more well-liked.
I definitely prefer to pursue things I'm interested in. If I'm not interested in something, I probably won't do it. If I do end up doing it, I'll do it long enough to prove to myself that I can do it and then I'll move on. I know what my passions are, and I don't feel I can work towards meeting goals that have no meaning to me personally. Well, I say that. I know I could, but I just don't want to. I really just don't. I want my life to have more meaning. I want to do something that's actually going to be productive in the grand scheme of things. That's why I want to pursue with building my nonprofit when the timing is right. That's also why I'm going to pursue my degree in psychology. There are a lot of people that can't afford therapy that do need it. I would enjoy volunteering some of my time to those who are not able to afford it. At the end of the day, I really do care about people. I want to give the underdogs a chance... a friend... a leg-up when they've been beaten down. I have the strength to pursue such things, and an undying belief that the world isn't changing because most people aren't doing their parts in making it change. I want to do my part. I have always had compassion and love for others. I would like to stay true to that part of myself while at the same time working hard to see my projects through for the ultimate greater good.
I almost always have this hint of underlying mischievousness and aggressiveness. If I'm not feeling particularly mischievous or aggressive, then the look you'll see in my eyes is that of warmth and kindness. I can go from sweet and warm to naughty and playful in .2 seconds :P I'm an odd combination of a lot of conflicting characteristics... uptight and laid back... serious and playful... assertive and chill... and the list goes on. I am whatever the situation calls for. I'm pretty flexible in this respect. Unpredictable is another way of putting it.
I've always been good at reading people and quickly figuring out what they like and what they respond to. I don't always make use of the information, but there are times when it definitely comes in handy. I know the best ways to approach people and can easily get them to do what I feel or think they should do. It's not quite as manipulative as it sounds. I don't motivate people in a certain direction without purpose. It is usually for their own good or for the common good. I do not abuse this particular ability as a rule, though I did use it in immature ways as a child, lol. Different people require different approaches, and applying those methods of approach is a very easy task for me. It comes naturally. I am persuasive and charming by nature. My charisma is very raw and genuine. It's not some facade or act. It's just who I am :) I'm not intentionally deceitful, though I am perceived that way sometimes. It's just automatic... I figure people out, and then what I do next depends on my relationship with them. In a work relationship, I will use the knowledge acquired to motivate co-workers to get tasks done. If it's an acquaintance relationship, I will use the knowledge acquired to make that person feel good and build toward a potentially stronger and deeper friendship.
I've been rambling forever now. God bless you if you got through even half of this shit, lol. Of course, any thoughts on my type are welcome and appreciated. This opening up stuff isn't so bad :P @Boss, @kaleidoscope, @Chipps, @Sonny, @viva, @Swordsman of Mana, @n2freedom, @LXPilot, @madhatter, @Spades, @chimeric, @cue5c, @SocioApathetic, @holyrockthrower, @cyamitide, @The King Of Dreams, @MBTI Enthusiast, @Scruffy, @aconite, and others are definitely welcome to give input.