2GiveMyHeart2

A couple of weeks ago I was having some trouble at our new curriculum in our Sunday School department at church. What has happened is I felt stuck as to where I fit, but now I found my place and am happy. I do 1st and 2nd hour Sunday School. So I miss "big church" or worship and the sermon in the main sanctuary. Okay, what 1st hour is are the majority of children whose parents/guardian(s) goes to church with us. 2nd hour is where we actually get the kids from the less fortunate areas of the community, and many of the parents don't attend church. The family life is very different and 90+% of them are the African American community. I really loved these kids in the old curriculum where we had separate genders and separate grades. The new curriculum we all have them together. It's like total chaos! They're like little demon divas with all their thug-liscious attitudes when they all come together. What we really need are more guys (I mean men) for crowd control.
This just really turns me off to being a school teacher. It's very draining to tell the kids to be quiet and they're all like "Wait, how old are you? I thought you were 12 or 18!" because I'm so short and thin and you get no respect. Well, I was dubbed the craft teacher for 2nd hr when the time comes to do crafts with the kids depending on the Sunday School lesson. I don't want to deal with disciplining part because I'm more concerned with the learning part. What is a teacher? A babysitter? Pretty much these days and I feel for those that have to deal with it 5 days a week with parents on top of that. Oh, the great part about it was one of them actually called me a "nigga." I was so shocked, I didn't have time to react to get after that kid.

I'm such a nervous wreck. Please, pray for me. lol