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i seem to be getting more and more into this sight. i kinda become a part of it and everything else goes away. i'm still not good at getting around on it, and i still can't figure out how to effectively search for the thread i want, but i'm attached non the less.

i've been looking into enneagram a little bit now. i still don't have my head wrapped around it, but it seems to be a part of the puzzle i've been looking for. it seems to get more into the core of people and their intentions ...

The logic: my friend never turned up to our 2pm arranged meeting time today. 4pm passes, no sign. Must have been busy. Ill? Tired? Tired of who?...Me?
The heart: I conciously make every possible move to not dissapoint anyone, the people pleaser, that's me. Why is it then that I'm never the pleased person? Of course it's not my friend's fault, there must be a reason I'm consistantly and without fail let down. Falling deeper. And deeper.
Perhaps it's a sign. Perhaps my purpose is simply ...

I've been thinking a lot about truth and deception lately. Why do we allow so many lies to meander throughout our lives? Why do we not want to deal with the truth? Why is truth even looked-down upon, or disregarded?

I think a lot has to do with protecting ourselves and those we care about. Sometimes yes, the truth is too much to handle. But is it better to face the truth, process through it, or hide from it? And where is the line between a "good" lie and a "bad" ...

I'm not posting as much as music as I did before...lest it becomes like my old blog I had on another site. So once in a while I'll post something I'm listening to.



Genre: Black Doom Metal
Album: The Funeral Era
Artist: Vhernen

I'm completely aware of how unusual this might seem to most people, especially with how Black Metal gets a certain rep.

Hell yes (lol no pun intended) it has certain qualities ...

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