I'm SUFFERING...

I don't really know how to start with this...
My childhood friend... The person I thought of like my sister... She's killed herself... Because she didn't feel loved... And I hadn't talked to her for a few days before she did it... I feel so guilty... I feel like this is my fault.... I was like her brother and I had neglected her... I loved her... And I caused her to kill herself... Please... I need help... My heart is broken... I feel like I'm going to go insane...

Woah, woah, woah. DO NOT blame yourself. This is NOT your fault.

I'm going to send you a private message.

dude, that's really rough I'm sorry :( I don't know what to say

I'm sad to hear about your traumatic loss of someone you loved so much. How overwhelming to feel a lot of mixed up emotions so suddenly.. It's not your fault!

I hope that you can take off some time to remember all the special moments you shared with her in spirit. My prayers to her, you and her family.

I just sent you a PM. I'm so sorry, honey *GIVES BIG HUGS*

Originally Posted by TheCuttlefish

I don't really know how to start with this...
My childhood friend... The person I thought of like my sister... She's killed herself... Because she didn't feel loved... And I hadn't talked to her for a few days before she did it... I feel so guilty... I feel like this is my fault.... I was like her brother and I had neglected her... I loved her... And I caused her to kill herself... Please... I need help... My heart is broken... I feel like I'm going to go insane...

If not talking to her for a few days was enough to push her over the edge, then it is likely her problems were something a lot bigger than just not having you there. Something caused her pain to exceed her coping mechanisms, but even if you feel responsible, it probably wasn't you. I can't even imagine how awful it would be to lose someone that way. Take as long as you need to process your grief, and if you ever need someone to talk to, we are all here for you. Pm me if you want.

OMG I'm SORRY to hear that!

I am so sorry to hear that. Please try to find someone to talk to in your life who may be able to give you help, support, and guidance.

I'm sorry to hear that.

It's not your fault that she killed herself. Sometimes even the closest people to someone who commits suicide don't realise how close that person might be to ending their own lives. There's been some very good responses already to this thread, especially Snail's, and I think you should contemplate the things said to you in this thread, because blaming yourself for the suicide of your friend is not only pointless, it will cause you psychological damage and pain. If someone wants to kill themselves, and I mean actually do the act itself, then there's no way you or anyone could be blamed.

Originally Posted by TheCuttlefish

I don't really know how to start with this...
My childhood friend... The person I thought of like my sister... She's killed herself... Because she didn't feel loved... And I hadn't talked to her for a few days before she did it... I feel so guilty... I feel like this is my fault.... I was like her brother and I had neglected her... I loved her... And I caused her to kill herself... Please... I need help... My heart is broken... I feel like I'm going to go insane...

@TheCuttlefish

It is not your fault. It is okay to feel bad but you do not have to suffer or feel guilty - from the sounds of it you did not know this was going to happen - you did not do anything wrong.

Be strong and talk to your loved ones.