Hello everyone. I am in desperate need of some rationalization and advice and I figured I'd post my dilemma here. I will be eternally grateful if you could give me your advice and state the reasons why you think I should do so.
I am a 14 year old girl and I live with my parents, living as expatriates in a rich Muslim country from a third world one. 6 months ago, my parents decided to fund the arrival and stay of this man from our country, we'll call him X.
I have known X since I was a baby, as he used to live with us from time to time and take care of me. X is sentimental, illiterate and good for nothing, it cost my parents a fortune to bring him here and then make him attend driving school, they are trying to help him basically.
my mum convinced her employer to sign a contract with her that he will employ and sponsor X to drive her to and from work.After 6 months of toil from my parents, he finally passed his driving test, and thus now works with my mother.
The reason my parents have done all this is because they have known him for so long that they trust him completely, almost like a son, and want to keep a "promise" to the community that they will help him.
Last night, while I was sleeping, X came into my room and started rubbing my vagina. It woke me the fuck up and he sprinted away. I saw him and know with certainty that it was him as he has this joint condition that make them go *click* *click* if he walks too fast or runs. I have honestly never been so stunned in my life, for although I hated his stupidity he had been like a brother.
and here comes the dilemma. what do I do?
1) Tell my parents
2) Pretend I slept through it
3) Threaten him and deal with him without involving my parents.
1) My parents are religiously blinded nutcases. X prays everyday, and I'm not too sure they will believe me or take the right action. They have never had the backbone to make their own decisions and are perfect examples of "community sheep", have taken all their decisions according to what others have deemed right, they even got married that way. My dad and I are not close at all, and he is honestly an idiot, unemployed right now. My mother is the only person in the household with even a fraction of rational thought, but she will never take any decision using her head without consulting her bogus holy men first, so that isn't much either.
If I tell my mother about what X did, she will probably:
a)send him back (which will cost her a LOT of money, double at this time of the year and possibly cost my college tuition. When he leaves, I'll have to do all the household work)
b) She will Ignore it. worry about it nonstop but won't take any action.
c) Destroy any freedom I have , constantly stick by me to "protect" me, sleep with me at night, not let me go out anywhere.
d) Kill X. My mother sees herself as some sort of martyr and protector (INFJ), and also the most devout person I know, so this is a serious possibility.
2)I could pretend it never happened. But I don't fucking want to, I really want to make him pay, make him miserable. This isn't the first time I have been caught in a rut like this; about 5 years ago, my very rich uncle would lock me in his room, kiss and touch everywhere with his stinking mouth and dry hump me. I kept it quiet and only asked him to stop (which he did) as my parents were indebted to him and saw him as a second father (it was upon his wish that they both even got married.)
I have had self worth issues all my life, possibly rooted in all that. Last year, this man who lived next door stalked me to and from school for a week then grabbed at me in the elevator. I told my parents and all they did was quietly move to another apartment (just in the next building actually), thats about as non-confrontational they are. My dad is an ISXJ.
3) Threatening: The third option I have is going to him with a hidden knife, tell him I know what the fuck is going on and that he had better keep his hands off me, else I'll go to the police and he'll have his hands cut off (islamic regulations), or if he tries anything suspicious, he'll be caught instantly. I don't want to involve the police, plus we live in a ghetto-ish part of the city where all the houses are leased out illegally. He cooks often , and I don't know if he is fucked up enough try poisoning us all or kill us in our sleep.
So you see, I am trapped in a fucking circus. My mother said she won't fund my college education to some western nation because she fears I'll not live by her conservative ways and maybe get raped (and the irony that she is housing an illiterate man who touches her daughter's clit at night right under her snoring religion snorting nose makes me laugh).
I obviously hate my life.
I can't process all this rationally and come to any conclusion about what I should do, which is what I hope you will help me with. Please. Thank you. Thank you so much.