Anxiety Help?

Sorry, I was just not sure where to post it, but I guess I need some advice.
I just want to get this off my chest... it would be great if someone could help me. Otherwise, I'd be just happy to confess my problems with no judgement. Since it is the judgement that seems to be stressing me out most.

I'm quiet a laid back person, easy to get along with, true, a bit aloof, but otherwise I am good natured, enough, and I don't mean harm. However I have a tendency to transfer into a darker side of me, a side that gets anxious over small things that I wouldn't mostly worry about, over worry about stupid things or even would avoid social gatherings to the point of avoiding school just because there is a fear there that I would be judged as someone stupid or pathetic, as I always believe I come across as.

Especially recently, even if I succeed in having many hours sleep when I wake up I'd be still sleepy, still low in energy which leaves me a bit miserable, and it makes my anxiety go up higher.
Before recent this only happened rarely and if it did I could hide it easily so it wouldn't have to annoy other's in my "moody teenager" act (Though I truly do hate that term, since it is not fully correct).

However I'm finding it harder to cover the more and more I feel anxious. It isn't even stress anymore- just a fear of anything and everything that one could fear, especially people, especially school, especially the future. Though I have no suicidal thoughts I still am fearful of how I would die, if it would hurt much, what would happen afterwards... in which I also fear of saying out loud, just in case people mistake me as someone suicidal when I, myself, not to mind anyone else's influence, would never, since I have seen what the effects of suicide have over others and I would feel rather guilty if I did die that I caused more pain then happiness.

But, anyway, if anxiety isn't enough recently I've been getting more angrier, more easier to snap then usual in which most people are just mistaking for womenly problems or "moody teenager" again. Most don't even see it, which I am grateful for, since even now I am worried I am being over dramatic over this all and that I shouldn't be ranting about it.

It would be nice if anyone had advice... even if it just small. Even if it isn't advice- as I said earlier I'm just glad I got this off my chest.
Though there is another problem- I actually don't know the main problem of this all. True, there is certain things that pop into my mind when I get fearful, but otherwise why I do this is unknown to me, since, as I said, I rarely let this self of myself take so much control of my life.

Thank you very much for listening.

Is the anxiety affecting your life at all? Sometimes, a person in anxiety can't correct it without, ironically, falling into the anxious state (unable to act well enough to recover, essentially) and it's a destructive cycle. If both of these are proven true in time, seek psychiatric assistance (medicine is a practice for correcting deficiencies in mind or body).

Originally Posted by InextricableImmanence

Is the anxiety affecting your life at all? Sometimes, a person in anxiety can't correct it without, ironically, falling into the anxious state (unable to act well enough to recover, essentially) and it's a destructive cycle. If both of these are proven true in time, seek psychiatric assistance (medicine is a practice for correcting deficiencies in mind or body).

Well it only got out of control recently, though I haven't been focused a lot in class, or I would be more aloof then someone would like me to be which either leads them to believe I do not like them or that they should question me aggressively. Though personally, yes, it has been effecting. I don't feel like I have control anymore, which is not a nice feeling.

About correcting it... about the destructive cycle- that describes it very well.

Thank you for your advice. I will try my best to seek out help.

Originally Posted by Pantheory

Well it only got out of control recently, though I haven't been focused a lot in class, or I would be more aloof then someone would like me to be which either leads them to believe I do not like them or that they should question me aggressively. Though personally, yes, it has been effecting. I don't feel like I have control anymore, which is not a nice feeling.

About correcting it... about the destructive cycle- that describes it very well.

Thank you for your advice. I will try my best to seek out help.

Just don't be embarrassed. ;) People visit their doctors for much more trivial reasons (e.g. sleeping problems, inattentiveness) and it's due to these affect them. Medication that helps the problem is a solution that isn't only for the insane or very unstable.

Have you tried learning to be more composed? You can also try making situations less stressful (ie: turning them into enjoyable activities). If something is often annoying you, make a plan to lower how bad it is. :)

Originally Posted by InextricableImmanence

Just don't be embarrassed. ;) People visit their doctors for much more trivial reasons (e.g. sleeping problems, inattentiveness) and it's due to these affect them. Medication that helps the problem is a solution that isn't only for the insane or very unstable.

Have you tried learning to be more composed? You can also try making situations less stressful (ie: turning them into enjoyable activities). If something is often annoying you, make a plan to lower how bad it is. :)

Thank you. That takes a lot of weight off my back. It has much more effect if someone else reassures you, even if that sounds a bit selfish.

I can be composed, I actually thought I was until last Friday until today when I ended up kinda losing the plot.
I will try to do that, so hopefully with some practice, I will be more calmer >.<

Originally Posted by Pantheory

Sorry, I was just not sure where to post it, but I guess I need some advice.
I just want to get this off my chest... it would be great if someone could help me. Otherwise, I'd be just happy to confess my problems with no judgement. Since it is the judgement that seems to be stressing me out most.

I'm quiet a laid back person, easy to get along with, true, a bit aloof, but otherwise I am good natured, enough, and I don't mean harm. However I have a tendency to transfer into a darker side of me, a side that gets anxious over small things that I wouldn't mostly worry about, over worry about stupid things or even would avoid social gatherings to the point of avoiding school just because there is a fear there that I would be judged as someone stupid or pathetic, as I always believe I come across as.

Especially recently, even if I succeed in having many hours sleep when I wake up I'd be still sleepy, still low in energy which leaves me a bit miserable, and it makes my anxiety go up higher.
Before recent this only happened rarely and if it did I could hide it easily so it wouldn't have to annoy other's in my "moody teenager" act (Though I truly do hate that term, since it is not fully correct).

However I'm finding it harder to cover the more and more I feel anxious. It isn't even stress anymore- just a fear of anything and everything that one could fear, especially people, especially school, especially the future. Though I have no suicidal thoughts I still am fearful of how I would die, if it would hurt much, what would happen afterwards... in which I also fear of saying out loud, just in case people mistake me as someone suicidal when I, myself, not to mind anyone else's influence, would never, since I have seen what the effects of suicide have over others and I would feel rather guilty if I did die that I caused more pain then happiness.

But, anyway, if anxiety isn't enough recently I've been getting more angrier, more easier to snap then usual in which most people are just mistaking for womenly problems or "moody teenager" again. Most don't even see it, which I am grateful for, since even now I am worried I am being over dramatic over this all and that I shouldn't be ranting about it.

It would be nice if anyone had advice... even if it just small. Even if it isn't advice- as I said earlier I'm just glad I got this off my chest.
Though there is another problem- I actually don't know the main problem of this all. True, there is certain things that pop into my mind when I get fearful, but otherwise why I do this is unknown to me, since, as I said, I rarely let this self of myself take so much control of my life.

Thank you very much for listening.

Have you looked into the Enneagrams? The head types are prone to anxiety. If you read up on them and find your time (probably 5, 6, or 7), it can explain a lot about what triggers anxiety, how to notice its arising and how to deal with it. I've had great success with this, maybe you will too.

Hi Pantheory, I would recommend going to see your doctor too. You could also try meditating - breathing exercises. Hope you feel better soon x

Originally Posted by EmotionallyTonedGeometry

Have you looked into the Enneagrams? The head types are prone to anxiety. If you read up on them and find your time (probably 5, 6, or 7), it can explain a lot about what triggers anxiety, how to notice its arising and how to deal with it. I've had great success with this, maybe you will too.

I have but not in great depth, but I will take a look through them now. Thank you very much for your help :)

Originally Posted by lantern

Hi Pantheory, I would recommend going to see your doctor too. You could also try meditating - breathing exercises. Hope you feel better soon x

I'm actually planning to go too, so thank you very much, and I will try :)