How do I deal with my older sister?
My sister is eighteen, and I am sixteen, and I feel like I am older than her and forced to baby her and what not. I don't want to hate my sister, I want to really like her, but I cannot for the life of me get to a place where I permanently love her. Actually I can't even tolerate her lately. She's just so... childish. Maybe it's just because I'm "overly mature", to the point where I try to baby everyone, but I don't know.
Reasons why I simply cannot love my little sister:
She's eighteen and pretends that means she a 100% adult
She throws the most illogical tantrums, and not just every now and again, weekly, at least
Even if I am on her side and helping her, she will turn on me
She is prone to hit someone who does not do exactly as she says (and not a light slap on the arm or a tap of the fingers, pull out punch, slap on face, or kick)
She cries about everything
I've never met a more bi-polar person in my life, who knows if she really has bi-polar syndrome, but seriously we could be laughing about something and then all the sudden I've got nine bruises and a broken arm (not a true story, by the way)
Back to the violence thing, she's super violent, she beat me up in a parking lot (I actually blacked out) because I refused to do something unnecessary for her
She's so snooty
I'm liar, okay? I lie about things all the time, I also am selfish and even though I'm usually level-headed, I can explode with a terrible temper. My sister and I share this trait. The difference between her and I, is that when I'm done with my explosion, I go back to being calm and level-headed, she keeps on exploding. Another difference is that she will never, ever, ever apologize, and I am so guilty I might apologize for days on end
For whatever reason she has a god-complex
No, my sister is completely the anti-Christ, and I probably am still bitter about all the things she's done to me over the course of our childhood, but I've been trying more than anything to accept her as a sister that maybe one day I could actually hug at a family reunion. But I just cannot see that happening, not even when we are about to die...
By the way, I am the youngest of six children, I have four older brothers, and my sister is my closest sibling.